THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 16, 2010
This blog actually started off as a simple status update on my Facebook, but after I was on line #5, I realized that I had a lot to say on this matter and had to blog it out.
The past 6 months have been phenomenal: so many great opportunities, experiences, and I am loving all the new friends and connections I have made. I loathe sitting still, and it's been a rush to be so busy. More like a dream come true, because I am busy doing what I love, and as an added bonus: am creating fun memories from all the social aspects of the events.
It's almost too good to be true: there has to be some sort of catch, or fine print that I'm not seeing. Wait, I think I found it.
At this point in my tv-hosting pursuits, I feel like I have an addiction: I can't get enough work, and I want to be in a million spots at once. I feel like I want to be a part of anything and everything. Not a bad thing; I'm motivated, right?
In the past month, I have encountered this situation a few times. The worst one was this past Sunday, where I had a ticket to the Bears game, and a then great opportunity arose to be involved a tv show that is shooting in Chicago right now. The obvious choice was to go for the tv gig: it was paying, I was casted, and it could lead to more work. But choosing the job would have resulted in hurting a personal relationship. No matter what I went for, someone would get fucked over, and I would have a nagging feeling for a week.
I realize that this is not going to be the last time that this will occur. In fact, I had to make another choice for this upcoming Saturday. This option was a little bit more easy, since one of the choices could be completed another day. But I still have to make that phone call and be like, "I'm sorry!" It sucks!
I want to clarify that this is not a complaint or gripe. I am happy that I'm presented with choices, and that I'm not looking for something to do. And I'm especially happy that people like me and want me to be a part of job/event/experience/task. This is moreso to say that I'M SORRY if I take a couple days to get back to you, or if I can't make it to help you.
Please don't stop asking for me or give up on me. I don't want to scare people off with this blog; I don't want people to forego contacting me at all because they figure, "Oh, she'll be too busy..." I want to be a part of your life. And I want to continue making new friends and contacts. And I want to continue having a full calendar. But most of all, I know what I want to do for a living, and this industry involves a lot of footwork and sucking up (boo). I am not blowing anyone off, and I'm not a diva or anything. It's just new territory for me, and I am creating a better system for myself that will aid me in balancing my life and work, and hinder me from forming a multiple personality disorder. But I'm addicted and it's not going away soon. Please bare with me.
THANK YOU to all the new friends I have made this past year, and THANK YOU to the people who have casted me for jobs and opportunities. You have made this a great 2010, and there's still 3.5 months left. I'm going to continue working for the rest of the year, and have some AWESOME jobs lined up that I CAN'T WAIT to share with you. But shhh! It's a secret right now...